A Rundown of What I was Up To

I haven’t been penning anything lately and it’s saddening rather it saddens me but inspiration has been avoiding me like the plague; or so I think. Though the whole time I’ve been out of touch, I’ve been quite successful with doing or choosing the right thing that is as I believe, I’ve realized that indeed, I wasn’t so bad at all. So, what was I up to?  Read on:

  • Getting in touch with my inner teacher. Yup, you read that right. I’ve been spending more time helping my mom with her college assignments that sometimes it makes me feel like I’m studying all over again or that I’m playing the teacher like when I was younger. It’s fun, though sometimes it could be painstaking specially if mom forgets the time difference and calls at 4:00am my time. Either way, it’s exciting and I realized that whatever gap we had from when I was younger is mostly water under the bridge now; it makes me feel good.
  • I started to be conscious about myself. By that I mean I started to make time to “workout” or “run/walk” or “do yoga” at least an hour a day at the very least. Well I owe most of it to my great friend Nelly who is an inspiration and a very awesome enabler. Yup, that’s her. I am planning to make a big leap soon, which is to challenge myself for something big, something I wouldn’t even ever imagine a few years back. I hope to get my act together for that to materialize.
  • Been out with friends. For a few hours that is because the danger of them disowning me is lurking about, it’s scary, really scary I sometimes dare not think but then again, it’s difficult to drag myself away from my screens, all three of them – laptop, phone and player. Balancing life is really difficult, I now realized it.
  • Try it, it’s good for you. I’ve been trying to learn how to swim, no results yet but I hope I get there, I wanna get there. I wanna learn how to swim.
  • Thank you for the music. Or more like thank you Kpop for helping me survive my daily life of boring business and endless phone calls and letter drafting for people that I might not even get to meet because I don’t want to otherwise known as I’ve completely embraced Kpop. Here’s my favorite playlist ever:

  • Bon appetite. Of course there’s some cooking going on still, mostly of dishes that I am not familiar with and deconstructing some of those dishes that I know of. It’s fun and calming. I only regret not being able to take more photos. I only have these two:

from scratch not ready made mix  my version of cold noodles

 

(Pancake is from scratch, not the ready made kind while the noodles is my version of cold noodles.)

 

  • Go ahead and watch. And of course, even if I don’t write about it, it is safe to assume that I have been watching dramas endlessly. During my stupor I’ve finished 4 series, that’s a record. Hopefully I’ll put my reviews up pretty soon *prays that inspiration doesn’t run away*

So.. Yeah. I therefore conclude that I have been hiding under a rock for the past month and I am now in the process of crawling out. I missed you all, chingudeul.

Possibly, an Attempt at Clip Making

It’s one of those phase again, I am suffering from a writer’s block; none of the sentences and words I write sounds good to me, thus to make up for it, I explored my laptop some more. I haven’t completely gotten around it and I figured “why not now?” The first thing that came to mind is to make a video clip. I wanted to try clip making for quite some time now; I checked the app store and found an app with good reviews. Here’s what I made using the app that I downloaded:

The quality is not that good, apparently you have to purchase the app to be able to utilize it fully but what the heck, I’ll think about it. I know the song is somehow off for the slide show but it’s been playing in my head since 7pm and I can’t brush it off, the same goes with the person on the slide but hey, this is an experiment and the materials are already there so I just rolled with it. I guess this won’t be the last.

The Gnawing Reality vs. Hoped For

Or my way of rephrasing “thou shall not bite off more than you can chew.”

Mood Setter: Try by Nelly Furtado

Pretty cryptic title right, I know, believe me, I know; but it’s me and being me comes being cryptic, morbid, somehow bonkers or in short 30 mixes of crazy in one package – that’s me. Today came the realization that I am having a dream or I had a dream, at any rate the gist is there – I was dreaming. I am gonna go around in circles some more just because I can and as my brother always points out, I’m overly verbose most of the time if not always; what’s wrong with wordplay anyways, or playing with your words? I don’t see anything wrong with that but I can see something going wrong with me.

So back to the dream that I was having; a month or so ago, I sort of “dreamed” or wanted to be able to write something on a daily basis, yes “a daily basis” and that time, I really believed that I can. I was completely optimistic that I can manage, I could and I would but unfortunately, I didn’t and I can’t. There’s plenty of things that I could say to justify my failure but I won’t, I refuse to dwell on beyond 21 excuses that’s not gonna make changes and differences; I want to put it all behind me as quickly as possible and start anew or be realistic.

I’m dropping my initial “project” and am sticking to a somehow healthy and I believe achievable one. I would like to focus on what I really want to write at the moment rather than put down words that I can’t and don’t believe to be at par to what I would want to read over and over just so I could keep up with the “project.” Spontaneity, I’m thinking is a better way so maybe I’ll give in to the call of randomness and write more in the moment after all, it’s those moments that really count.

I decided that I wouldn’t be compromising quality to quantity and succumb to realism; versus what I hoped for. I do not want to bite off more than I can chew and end up choking on it anymore because that’s embarrassing and completely humiliating, well at least the literal biting off more that you can chew is; I know, I did it once a long time ago while having some beer argh, I still shudder whenever I recall that, the sinker is I was in front of a guy I’m completely trying to appear cute with. Oh the horror.

Right, so the decision; I’ve decided to post at least 2  K drama related post a week, yes at least two and if there’s anything random that’s worth posting, I’ll be posting any day. I’m still deciding which day of the week would be workable, I have to confirm if there would be changes at work but I know 2 K drama post is workable without completely pushing things, crossed fingers. Now I’ll breath and let that thought jump all over my head until it sinks in. “There you go buddy, you can give being guilty a rest” and yes that’s me giving myself a pep talk and somehow giving myself a much needed pat on the back.

Yay, I Can See!

And I am back and feeling much better. I’m finally seeing clearly again after a long time, no more headache too, this is such an awesome and sweet feeling. It hurts my pocket a bit but I don’t care, I need this. I had to take a short break from writing because I can’t manage the headache after work anymore and I can’t sneak blogging at work lately because the business is picking up its phase and there’s a lot going on so the absence. But now I’m feeling better all thanks to this:

 

I still can’t decide if the frame looks great on me but the lense is surely rocking, ah the clarity is so welcome, I haven’t seen clearly in a year in my old glasses thus I feel so overjoyed; yup, I am shallow like that. I’m gonna be catching up with everything now, there’s tons that I need to finish and I feel so great that I can finally focus and finish things without stopping halfway to nurse a headache. Also, I could get to really appreciate this, truly:

Now that is priceless, thus I refuse to drown on being broke for a top of the line or expensive eyeglasses, it’s worth every single cent.

Liebster Award Take 2 & 3

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Pretty big title right, well it is a big deal for me that is why. After the surprise of the first nomination, there are two other unexpected nominations that followed and seriously, I am speechless. One nomination was already awesome for me but to get two more, WOW! I don’t know where and how to begin thanking you guys, Snow and Hyuk Ahjussi Devoted Fan.

Okay so before I turn all weepy and whatnot, here are the rules of the Liebster Award.

1. Each nominee has to link back the person who nominated them.

2. Answer 10 questions which are given to you by the nominator.

3. Nominate 10 other bloggers who have less than 200 followers for this award.

4. Create 10 questions for your nominees to answer.

5. Let the nominees know that they have been nominated by going to their blog and notifying them.

Now for my answer to Snow’s question:

1. Who is your favorite K-ent actor and actress?

This is difficult, very difficult, I can’t decide. I like plenty of actors and actresses but I do have to admit that I’m currently mooning over Yoon Si-yoon.

2. Talking about favorites, what are your favorite movies, TV serials, actors and actresses outside Kdramaland?

This is easy enough, my favorite movie outside Kdramaland is One More Chance, it’s a Filipino Movie leaning more on melo, but it’s a good melo, I think I watched it more than 15 times but I still cry every time. TV serial would be Trueblood, although I’m a little disappointed that they’re straying way too far away from the book lately, especially on season 6. My favorite actor is Alexander Skarsgard, please do not judge me, actress Sandra Bullock.

3. If your life were a drama, which one would it be?

Hmmm, another difficult question; I guess I would go with Flower Boy Next Door, I’m Go Dok-mi in the making.

4. Dramas or novels? Why?

Dramas and novels, though I have to admit I haven’t been reading much lately because I’m too occupied with dramas. I like dramas because of the dreamy actors and actresses plus soundtrack. Novels because it makes my imagination work more, more brain workout, more feelings explored and later written as poems.

5. Which color do you like the most and why?

I am in favorite color transition currently. I used to favor blue, then red and now it’s purple. Either way these colors has one thing in common, it’s colors of goodbye or sadness.

6. Your dream cast for a drama: main leads as well as second leads.

Oh, this is going to be fun. Well there’s Yoon Si-yoon, Lee Min-ho, Sung Joon and Lee Seung-gi for the actors, for the actresses Ha Ji-won, Shin Min-ah and Jun Ji-hyun. That’s one smoking drama, because I say so.

7. What is the best thing about blogging in your opinion?

For me, the best thing about blogging is that you have a specific and special place where you can be yourself and talk about what it is that you really want and meeting or talking to people who share the same interest as you are.

Here are the questions from Hyuk Ahjussi Devoted Fan:

1. What is your favorite movie? – from any country

My all time favorite is My Sassy Girl, 2ndis One More Chance.

2. What is the most wonderful thing that happened in your life?

Most wonderful, hmmm, I’m a moment to moment person so this is kind of tough for me. But I guess I could say it’s knowing that I am important to my siblings, way more than I expected and it’s not because of financial matters, it’s more on emotional. That’s all the love I need for now.

3. What are you doing right now other than answering this question?

Uhm, I’m currently having some tea, might work on my review after this.

4. If you were given USD 10,000 what will you do with that money? Please don’t save it.

Tour parts of Asia namely Singapore, Malaysia, Thailand, Indonesia, and of course South Korea then go for a two week adventure on the provinces of the Philippines. I’ll start with Baguio then Cagayan, Boracay, Davao oh and Palawan.

5. Android or iPhone?

Hmmm, Blackberry. Seriously the Z10 is awesome! I want to buy myself one but for now I’m stuck with iPhone.

6. Do you have someone you want to punch at this current moment?

Yup, but I’m not gonna give in.

7. Express yourself in 3 words

Complex, obsessive and loner

8. Express your k-drama crush in 3 words.

Dreamy, adorable and dazzling.

9. What is your favorite Korean phrases?

Maldoandwae, jugeullae? Michyeonabwa.

10.Coffee or tea or milk?

Coffee, tea and milk. I prefer coffee but I also drink tea and if I can’t sleep, I drink milk.

Now for my set of questions:

1. Something that you couldn’t do without.
2. Somewhere you desperately want to go.
3. If you are to write a story or drama, what is it going to be about?
4. 10 random things about you.
5. Cola or juice?
6. Pen or pencil?
7. Pillows or stuff animals/toys?
8. Describe your dream get away.
9. If you could go back in time and talk to your old self, what would you talk about?
10. If you can change something about yourself, what is it?

Here are my nominees:

1. http://inkonskin.wordpress.com/

2. http://cristianmihai.net/

3. http://alexiaboland.com/

4. http://brightlittleworld.wordpress.com/

5. http://happilyeverme.com/

6. http://kdramawonderland.wordpress.com/

7. http://thestuffweforget.wordpress.com/

Now to notify them. I hope they have fun answering this questions. Again, I thank Snow and Hyuk Ahjussi Devoted Fan for the nomination, sorry if I took so long to answer the questions.

An Unexpected Milestone

100 posts, yes, that’s right, you’re eyes are not playing with you; that’s what I was telling myself after seeing the WordPress notification. One. Hundred. Posts. I still can’t believe I posted that much, did I really? How? Seriously, I can’t help but smile.

In all honesty, I didn’t think I’d be posting regularly or this much. I’ve created blog after blog and my willingness to write last only a few weeks and then I’d disappear altogether leaving the blog all hollow and empty, yup, I’m all lazy like that. And no, I won’t say I don’t feel any laziness nowadays because I do, I fail to post what I want to post sometimes like before, the only difference is I feel guilty knowing  I didn’t write anything on those days that I said I would. Bizarre right; where did that came from? I dunno either. Or maybe I know but I didn’t think it would be such a great motivation. I owe it all to being a former agent.

Another unexpected thing is that I am actually having fun blogging, which I didn’t quite experience before, well maybe because I didn’t really write anything much in my previous blogs or something, whatever. I really don’t have any idea as to why but I am finding it fun and I think the fact that I didn’t expect it just adds so much more to that joy. Somehow when these thoughts crosses my mind I’d think my wish to preserve what I have learned while working as a call center agent took me such a long way without me knowing or realizing it.

Ultimately, I got to reconnect with the old me, the aspiring poet in me which I also think as an achievement because I thought I’ve lost that side in me through the years and I’m thankful that it’s still there, and it is now out in the open again. And somehow, sometimes, I feel like I’m the old me again, finding poetry in everything happening around me, from the flying birds that I see to the flowing water.

It’s not just writing too, it’s designing as well. Who would have thought that I’d be into photo editing at this age and really enjoy it? True I love taking photos but before being hooked with blogging, I never designed anything at all and it’s quite a revelation for me that I have it in me to design something; it’s amazing and extremely interesting.

So yes, one hundred post; in almost 4 amazing yet not so perfect months. I am not promising that I’ll be posting a hundred more, but one thing I know is I won’t be stopping anytime soon;  because I’m rather like a gambler, sort of winning and somehow can’t get to stop.

Morning View

(Or my way of saying it’s a rainy morning)

I woke up late today; I abused the snooze button as much as I can and before I knew it, it’s already 8 AM something. Thankfully there’s just two of us at home right now so I finished preparing for work on time. It also helps that there’s nothing to distract me from preparing because the internet service of our house is currently interrupted (I am leeching on the office internet, nope am not so proud) so nothing is to slow me down, well except this:

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I realized why it was so hard to wake up; it’s one of those days that you just want to stay in bed and it is sort of justifiable because of the weather condition (it’s raining). Who can resist the irresistible bed weather? I did, because I have to work but I think it’s going to be bed weather all day today so I think it’s going to be just fine. I’ll keep looking at this to motivate me:

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And because I really feel like setting the mood (my obnoxious way of saying I love torturing myself) I’ve been listening to this:

Inspired right? I love my bed, and my non breathing cuddle buddies.

A Review of the Year End Kind

Wow, will you look at that; another year is coming to its end; another year passed by almost unnoticed. It still feels like it was just yesterday when I celebrated the New Year’s Eve with friends, near friends, somewhat friends, either way, it really dawns on me that this year is almost at its end because that New Year’s Eve is all in the past now.

This year is the year of the unexpected, the year of finding my old self or the year that my old self woke up from its coma. 😀 I had to admit I didn’t think it’s possible to have this drive, energy and interest again because after all, I’ve aged (not so gracefully) so it still comes as a surprise that I’m holding my ground somewhat; it’s true that it’s never too late.

Right, so 2013, what happened in 2013? It’s a series of events, some fortunate some unfortunate which is why I am classifying 2013 into three (3) the good, the bad and the half baked:

The Good:

~ I started to write poems again, like I do a very long time ago and I have to admit I thought I won’t have that feeling anymore, the anxiousness to wake up in the middle of the night just to write down the lines forming in my head so it won’t slip away, it’s awesome. I missed those urges, it makes me feel like I’m my old self again.

~ I started to cook/learn Korean dishes and surprised that I still have that passion for cooking, who would have thought I’ll fall in love with the kitchen this hard the 2nd time around.

~ I started blogging again and is doing my earnest to continue for my own good. This is the therapy that I need, a way to let go and organize all the things that are swirling in my scattered brain. And it’s a means for me to remember, cause I am not getting any younger and things are somehow slipping from my mind sometimes so I wish to keep a record that I can access anytime I want, anywhere.

~ I fell in love with Korean Dramas and Movies and everything will never be the same ever again. Though I must admit it’s kind of awkward for me to call myself a fangirl at this age but what the heck? To each her own.

~ I got a new job description, although it is pretty much an additional workload and a still under negotiation increase, it’s a change.

~ I accepted that it is time to stop running after something that is not worth it, I finally woke up from the my illusion, I’m facing reality now.

~ I got to see Anne Gelene after 3 long years, and I have to say her stay at my place was too short! We didn’t get to have a Korean Drama marathon as planned. I hope she gets to visit again this coming year.

~ Finally had the guts to dye my hair. (Sorry mother, I really wanted to do this since I can’t remember when.)

The Bad:

~ Lost friendship, well it’s more on I realized who is true to me, not that I do not have any faults about that.

~ Ended relationship for good.

~ Work mishaps, and it cost me something, well more than something.

~ My blackberry decided to breakdown for good.

~ My laptop is at the brink of breaking down too.

The Half Baked:

~ Still struggling to quit smoking, half way there, I’m going to stop, I’m claiming it.

~ In the process of considering writing a story, I will once I stop overthinking.

~ Trying to learn Korean, I know the letters already, I just need to push some more.

That was what year 2013 brought to me, I’m almost ready to put it behind and take on 2014 head on. Looking forward to another year, another beginning, another chapter of my existence.

As I Strive to Develop, Grow and Remember

As the year ends and as I continue to get comfortable in my own home in the internet, I decided to be sort of systematic. Well it is sort of more because I think I do better or I function well enough if I have a goal or something. Look at how I nailed the 30 day blog challenge in nearly 30 days, that’s something. It would also be an encouragement for me to never give up and take on new things and don’t be overwhelmed just because it’s something I haven’t done before. I would also get to change, improve and polish my writing skills and thought process.

What am I babbling about? Well I came up with things or topics that I would write about on a daily basis, an upgrade of the 30 day blog challenge, a weekly challenge or a guideline of sort, a theme per day, you get the gist. Here’s what I came up with:

~ Monday – I’ll write about a certain song that I listened to or listening to or I listened to and now on repeat in my music player (also known as my iPhone.) That makes Mondays music day or That Tune on a Monday.

~ Tuesday – Since I watch and read way too much, I have way too much quotes that I like and sometimes forget. Thus writing about it doesn’t only make me completely analyze the quote, it makes me remember it easily too, because I can check it out anytime. Thus Tuesdays are about quotes or As I Quote Tuesday.

~ Wednesday – I’ll be posting poems that I wrote or the stories behind a dish that I cooked, whichever comes first and makes Wednesday either Poetry Wednesday or Wednesday’s Kitchen Stories.

~ Thursday – I’ll write about Korean Dramas/Movies that I watched; it’s either some musing, recaps (hoping to be brave enough to take that on,) reviews or some hopefully not so serious fangirling. It’s a day filled with drama, so calling it Dramatic Thursday is more than fitting.

~ Friday – is a rest day, it’s the weekend after all.

~ Saturday – English is not my native language, and as much as possible, I try to learn a new English word everyday (thanks to my Dictionary app it’s a whole lot easier now.) That said every Saturday; I am going to post about my word of the day or That Word This Saturday.

~ Sunday – this day I’ll be posting anything and everything, the choice is endless making Sundays Purely Random Sunday.

It’s very ambitious right? I thought so too but then it’s encouraging, it’s making sure that I write or continue to write. My pronunciation is already in danger; I can’t risk my grammar too.

In closing, with this I hope to develop at least my writing skills, grow with experience as I write one word after the other and remember the feeling, reaction and thought behind each word.