On Repeat: It’s Alright, It’s Love (괜찮아 사랑이야) – DAVICHI

So.. Yeah, I think this is going to be sort of a regular thingy, On Repeat; because I do tend to play songs on repeat for days it’s ridiculous and fun. Yes fun, because I love fun things. As of the moment, the song I have on repeat is It’s Alright, It’s Love by Davichi off the OST of the drama that I am currently obsessed with: It’s Okay, That’s Love.

It doesn’t fall in any of my usual selection which is upbeat, cheerful R&B-ish, alternative rock-ish meet somewhat heavy metal but it completely charmed me to listen to it over and over again. I’ve got one word why, LONGING. The song expresses a strong feeling of longing, from the melody to the voice of the singer, down to the accompaniment; it has LONGING written all over it and it’s hurting me in a very good way. The lyrics are not helping either because it’s simply beautiful that I can’t help but look into it deeply:

Do you see my heart? Why is it love?
I was never gonna fall in love again
But I’m such a fool

Generally that’s the question, how, why and what. Those questions usually comes from a person trying to look at LOVE in a logical way, someone who has crashed and burned before because of love but, unavoidably; jumps at the same boat again even though thinking somehow badly of themselves.

Why am I happy? I think of your face
Only stay by my side, forever you

Love as we experienced, yes we, and I won’t bother to expound why it’s “we”; makes us go all cuckoo and lose our mojos. It’s possible that it helps boost endorphins level too because it makes people happy and gay. And being in a state where one is happy and gay, it’s only natural to build a “wall” around what causes happiness. By that I mean securing that it would be a constant thing, something like the only F word that I strongly consider as wishful thinking: FOREVER.

You came to me with the wind like the swaying flowers
You knocked on my heart, I love you

Falling in love is magical, it could happen abruptly sometimes but that is a magical abruptly, like being touched by an angel. Thus finding that right person or for the right person to find you, it’s similar to completing a puzzle, the better picture is revealed.

My heart hurts when I see you
It’s alright, it’s love
My flawed heart and my love
Will you accept it? Me?

No matter how much happiness love brings, it also brings pain but then it’s alright because it’s all part of it; all part of love as a whole. There’s insecurity too, the feeling that you won’t add up. But, it’s not such a big deal especially if both parties are open to the fact that “perfection” is merely a preference rather than a reality.

Love me
I love you

Again, the expectation to have one person’s feeling to be reciprocated is a given, lex talionis. Though with LOVE, it doesn’t really work that way thus the longing builds up, the pain intensified. Despite it all, the possibility for us to embrace the idea and the premise of being in love again will not seize because it is LOVE. I’m gonna borrow one of my favorite quotes from “The Witch of Portobello” by one of my beloved authors in this whole Milky Way who is Paulo Coelho:

“Love is.”

Yes, love is. We can spend our whole life to try and give it a meaning but it is just is, LOVE is.

Needless to say I am filled with longing these days because of this song but it’s alright, it’s worth it.

Lyrics Source | popgasa |

[K-Drama Review] Me Too, Flower!

I’ve been mooning over Yoon Shi-yoon lately, because I want to, har har. That being said I decided to watch those dramas that he was casted in. After Flower Boy Next Door, I opt to watch Me Too, Flower and yes, it has something to do with the inclusion of the word “flower” to the title because flower equals beautiful, that’s the logic; at least the Korean Drama logic and indeed it was beautiful.

What the babble’s about?

Cha Bong-sun (Lee Ji-ah) is a police officer with a bit of unplaced angst, a hint of rebellion and a need to be loved, in every possible way. When she was not promoted as a Sergeant, she staged a protest that caused her to take some counseling from Park Tae-hwa (Jo Min-ki) a wealthy psychologist that she finds irritating specially he’s been asking things she’s been avoiding to face for so long. As she is leaving his office, she almost had an accident that adds to her initial irritations.

At work, she was assigned a new patrol partner, Jo Ma-ru (Lee Gi-kwang). They were tasked to respond to an incident report from Perche, a high end fashion store owned by Park Hwa-young (Han Go-eun). She sees Seo Jae-hee (Yoon Shi-yoon) who is working as a valet parking attendant. Unbeknownst to her, it is just a cover, he is actually the co-founder of the store. The initial irritation just adds up as they had a real accident that cause him to be fired from his job. He goes to the police station to tell her that he was fired and demanded she find a job for her. The tension between them is obvious that it goes to say that he is about to shake her already shaky world while trying to find his own closure from his shady past.

Initial Reaction

I find this drama extremely interesting, well I know it has to do with me mooning over Yoon Shi-yoon but aside from that, the story line is great, as per my opinion, makes me want to have my own shrink for all those time that I feel like I am losing it, harhar. The characters are believable in a way that you feel with them: like I sympathize with Bong-sun’s being all reluctant to forgive her parents whom she thought abandoned her. I understand Jae-hee’s wish to protect Hwa-young and her son because he feels responsible for her husband’s death. I can somehow accept Hwa-young’s being obsessive with Jae-hee because she needed someone to hold on to after her husband’s tragic demise. I love Dr. Tae-hwa, and as I already mentioned,  I wish he was my shrink. Ma-ru is another character that I am fond of, the way he’s hesitant to pursue his love interest is interesting and I am somewhat sad that he lost his chance. I can also relate to Kim Dal (Seo Hyo-rim) her wanting to have it all and be loved.

Oh so engaging!

Initially, it was all about me watching Yoon Shi-yoon, yes that shallow but hey, fangirls are fangirls and nope, I’m not ashamed about it. Though I have to admit I am happy that this drama turned out to be good and engaging. Here’s why:

1. Cha Bong-sun in all her shiny layers. It’s amazing how she doesn’t want to accept at first that there’s something wrong with her, how she covers her thoughtful and sweet self with angst and roughness because she’s afraid and she haven’t experienced love yet she overcame everything and found a love to last her days no matter their differences.

 

2. Seo Jae-hee and his quest to do right plus self forgiveness. I love the way Yoon Shi-yoon gave life to this chatacter, it’s good, no great well actually awesome. The different emotions he showed are so tasteful it’s unbelievable. It’s such a joy to watch. I like how he was lonely and how it is self inflicted, how he wants to be responsible about something that he didn’t entirely did on purpose.

3. We found our missing pieces. That’s exactly what I think while watching the love story between Bong-sun and Jae-hee flourish, beautifully. True it was a long road but it was filled with sweetness and everything else. I was happy that in the end, they accepted each other’s differences.

 

4. Kim Dal wants to be loved. For a person who lost her once charming life, it is but expected that things would turn out awry and quite frankly, somewhat acceptable. True she’s a pain and annoyingly cute at that but you have to admire a person who knows what she wants.

 

5. Jo Ma-ru, baby calculating his way to love. This is sad,  because in doing so he missed his chance, not that he really has one anyways still, he continued to take care of his Bong-sun noona and even stepped up for her when she was falling apart over her break up.

 

5. Tae-hwa the shrink for all needs and purposes. Having a shrink I guess is a real love hate relationship. He prods and tells you things you don’t want to hear; makes you realize what it is that’s troubling you, comforts you on your meltdown. Yup, I need a shrink. LOL

 

Yet, I was weary, I was!

A good drama also makes you weary, that I think is part of it that can’t be denied. It would have been better if it wasn’t there but let’s face it, it’s required, well sort of. Here’s the source of my weariness:

1. Hwa-young, the obsessed feeling victimized woman. At first I was entertained, truly I am. I thought this character was dignified and all, that was until she showed her true colors. What’s with being clingy and using emotions as means of blackmail and keeping a person close to you for your own purpose and gain? That’s not loving at all, if it was then pigs can fly is what I think.

 

2. Overly pushing and pulling to the point of exhaustion and self destruction. The first and second time was adorable and bearable but the last few was too much for my own liking, make up your mind people; break up if you really mean it. Well maybe they need to prolong the agony, these guys are masochist, not the other meaning and by these guys I mean Bong-sun and Jae-hee.

3. Jae-hee’s noble idiocy and partiality. Why do I say partiality, well he was partial with everything; first his feelings then his true status and lastly his “obligation” to Hwa-young. He could have revealed it all in one time but he had to be partial and turn things complicated. I guess that was needed to prolong the drama but still, I just wish he muster enough courage to tell Bong-sun everything right away. Then there’s noble idiocy; this is a part that can’t be omitted I think, somehow I was expecting something like this to happen but I didn’t like that it took a long airing time, it was difficult to watch, so frustrating.

 

4. Bong-sun’s allergy to riches. Well it’s more on she thinks less of herself, initially it was fine, but the longer it drags the more I get sick of it because come on, it’s not his mistake if he is rich, the only mistake I see there is he took so long to let her know.

Oh Those Melodies

Anyone who watches Korean Dramas knows the importance of the OST, these are a must. It adds to the attraction of the drama and I have to say Me Too, Flower’s OST is good, extremely pleasant to the ears. Here are some of the songs that I kinda listen to even after I finished watching the drama:

Seo Yeon (서연) – Love is You (ft. Blue Marble)

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BB Boys – L. O. V. E.

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Oshima Mai feat. Levela – You

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Beast – Dreaming

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Worth Capturing

Some of those scenes that I liked and as it says: captured. Let me note: spoiler alert, maximum level I guess, or yeah, maximum level. I got all excited with screen caps, sorry.

 

First meeting; the tension and sparks are pretty obvious.

 

They met once more and their fates are sealed.

 

Do you like me? The answer is pretty obvious right?

 

Uhm, this pretty much is here because I want it to be here. ^^

 

This is a fangirls dream.

 

This is why you shouldn’t provoke her, poor Jae-hee; you brought it on yourself though.

 

He tries to bribe her, look how things turned out. Lesson: don’t mess with her.

 

She’s not suffering from depression according to Ma-ru, that’s what she’s happy about.

 

Frenemy, indulgent frenemy.

   

It started as a dare, Ma-ru had such rotten timing, I wanted mooore of the naughty.

 

This is why she’s too clingy on him, he’s awesome with the kid too.

 

Pseudo-daddy.

 

Hallucination, first clear sign that you’re falling.

 

I laugh so hard watching this part; it would have been better if she just walked straight but she has to try and avoid them, thus the chaos.

   

Ex bf meets “current” bf and since they kissed, they’re not strangers anymore.

 

Ma-ru Darth Vader.

 

This is called ROFL.

 

He gets them to talk, and talk they do.

 

The reason she’s so angry is because she’s beginning to fall for him hard.

   

At first it was just to stop her but I guess her brain stopped working at the same time mine did thus it turned into a make out session.

 

“Window Shopping”

 

You’re prettiest when you’re drinking doesn’t really sound as a compliment. ^^

 

Adorable Father’s Day.

 

Coolest “Fangirl” ever!

   

He went out of town for some business and she’s worried cause it was said that it’s a sick leave at work. Girlfriend finally had the guts to move forward, accept her feelings only they don’t even know their phone numbers which does not make sense because of all the skinship.

     

He came back, he missed her and wants to keep seeing her. He’s her “Oppa” and she’s so happy she can’t hide it.

 

“I’ll let you know about him if you have lunch with me,” says the shrink who hates eating alone.

     

He said she can lean on him thus she poured her heart and they share their fears of living alone.

 

Bong-sunnie’s aeygo monster moment.

 

The “can you please tell me what I want to hear and take my side” moment.

   

Calm before the storm, first dinner together.

 

Before and after identity revelation.

 

That story explains so much about you.

   

The cutest and sincerest apology.

   

“I know you, you know her but I didn’t know you’re dating” or “it’s a small world after all and guys are petty” moment.

     

“I’m drunk, I had an accident and I think I am bleeding, I need Officer Cha!” says the adorable drunk puppy on the street.

     

More of the cute drunk moment because I can’t help it. Oh and he said she is not supposed to go home, awe-some!

 

Face off.

   

I wanna give you a hug or two!

   

He delivers pizza and brings hot packs because he’s sweet like that. ^^

 

“I got used, I can’t decide what to do, I need consultation!” says the rude girl in 10 inches high heels.

   

Hurting ourselves because we’re masochist like that.

 

This is why she’s so afraid.

 

The moment of truth, thank you USB!

 

Surprise!

 

How about some consultation my dear cousin?

 

He’s keeping her warm.

 

I love how mom is happy she found someone to care and love her just the way she is.

 

Love me, that’s all I ask of you.

 

Somehow I want more than that but since she’s a patient, that would do, oh hugs, more hugs.

 

Formal greeting.

 

Take it down!

 

Cuddling, more cuddling!

Conclusion

I could say that regardless of those wearying points, I was satisfied with Me Too, Flower and if I have time, I would re-watch it again, not just for Yoon Shi-yoon but for something more like the shrink advises and all the craziness.

 

Rating

9 out of 10

[That Tune on a Monday] Don’t Cry

Since I am currently into I Need Romance 3, it’s quite natural that I lean to its OST too, and surprisingly, I like it so far.  Don’t Cry, one of the songs off the OST is a very heartfelt song and when it was played during that scene at the crossroad, I feel it’s appropriate, at least to my opinion. So why do I find it appealing? Is it because of the title or the lyrics that I of course read the English translation or the melody? Well, first it’s the title, then the melody, lastly the lyrics.

If it’s not yet obvious, I would like to state that I was stubborn when I was younger, by that I mean from my teenage years until my early 20s and honestly, I think that’s normal at that age. You learn as you grow old, not unless you’re too proud to think that you’re not making any mistake of course, but if you are honest with yourself and you contemplate about what you’ve done, then it’s different, everything is a completely new picture. During those time, I get scolded by my mother three times or maybe more a day and you know how when people are angry they say words that they don’t really mean, (at least now I see it that way, it was a whole lot different during that time) you know those hurtful words that stings more than a slap does. The words that get me by during that time are “don’t cry.” I repeat it about 20 times a day because I don’t want to show how hurt I am. I did the same the first time I left the country, as I make my way to the check in area I repeat in my head: don’t cry, don’t let your mother see you cry. Don’t cry; don’t let your brother feel how sad you are. I try so hard to be cool. Now, I still resent crying but not for the same reason as before but because I end up having a migraine attack the next day if I cry. So, basically, no tear shedding as much as possible, that’s the word, as much as possible.

Next the melody, the tugging to the heart melody with sultry bittersweet vocals; it gives off the right feelings all thanks to it being played using a piano. Apart from the violin, the piano I think gives off that melancholic mood that can be felt especially if it’s a very slow tempo. The base helps too; it gives that slow rocky sort of alternative makeover to the plain tingling tune of the piano. When I closed my eyes while listening to the song, the picture I see in my head is one worth writing a poem about and breaking down while reading it, which I think I am going to post by Wednesday.

Lastly the lyrics, the translation I took from popgasa.com:

Don’t Cry

Lee Hyeri

There’s still so many things to remember
so I can’t escape even now
you keep digging deeper into me

Today is the same as yesterday
nothing will change tomorrow
so I cowardly shut the door

Don’t cry, in this darkness
don’t cry, protect yourself
don’t cry, don’t cry

Don’t cry, until always
don’t cry, feel me
don’t cry, I won’t let go

Love is in the memories
it’s in the floating smoke
it’s in the pouring fatigue

Sadness is in my heart
it’s in the fallen flower petals
it’s in the wheels of time

Don’t cry, in this darkness
don’t cry, protect yourself
don’t cry, don’t cry

Don’t cry, until always
don’t cry, feel me
don’t cry, I won’t let go

Living on
Disappearing
Living on
Disappearing

Don’t cry, in this darkness
don’t cry, protect yourself
don’t cry, don’t cry

Don’t cry, until always
don’t cry, feel me
don’t cry, I won’t let go

Don’t cry
don’t cry
don’t cry, don’t cry

The flower petals silently fly away
Time wordlessly ticks on
at some point, it all turns back around.

Right, so don’t cry. Love can affect a person two ways, it’s either love breaks you or make you. And as I see it, in the case of this song, love broke the person and that person refuse to step out of that walls that person built as a protection. There’s that recoil, which I get and I understand. Most people tend to stop eating for a bit if their tongue gets burned, I believe it is the same concept.

That’s the song I am listening to, melancholic, melodic and somehow nostalgic.

[That Tune on a Monday] Dolphin

I’m currently watching I Hear Your Voice and is enjoying it immensely; why didn’t I watched it before? As always, I have a song stuck in my head since watching the drama because Korean Dramas mostly or always have awesome, rocking soundtrack. That’s a must as I have observed, it’s not an add on; it’s part of the package.

The song is very catchy and simple that I didn’t just find myself singing to it, am also swaying with it. Now, since I am sold with the melody and all, because I am me who needs to know the gist of what I am listening to, I searched the web for an English translation. I found one and I’m not completely sold with it and I didn’t want to go all Google Translate so let it be. I do somewhat get some of the lyrics based on the Romanization:

You, oh you! neoreul chajeul su itge

[You, oh you! I want to find you (?)]

You, oh you! neoreul jikigo sipeo

[You, oh you! I want to protect you (?)]

The italic lines in pink font is my somehow translation. I should really take studying seriously.

Either way, the song is groovy so I don’t care and it’s not like I can shake it out of my head at this point. It’s come, come, coming a coming around to me.