A YY Couple Fan Fiction: We Are Dating, Chapter 14

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Chapter 14: “All Roads Leads to You”

I guess he is finally giving up Seyoung thought as she gets out of her bed. Well it’s been two weeks, if it was me I would have given up already. Yeah right, like you would. She was having this conversation in her head when what she’s anticipating came.

“Ka-talk, ka-talk.” There it is a bit late than usual, she thought as the messages came, one after the other. She finished fixing her bed before she lazily checked the messages. She knows that it’s from Wooyoung, he never fails to send her tons of messages daily – morning, afternoon and evening since that day and she’s used to it by now. She was surprised and a bit disappointed to see that it was from Jinwoon. The message reads:

“Noona, annyeong! I have been meaning to send you something but I was really busy lately and I keep forgetting about it. I hope this makes your day.”

The second message was a video clip and she finds it a bit odd. She opened it and felt the familiar flutter. It was a clip of Wooyoung with his groupmates. They’re in the practice room and Wooyoung grabbed a familiar box container from Chansung and Taecyeon, declaring that they cannot have any of its content, that it is all his.

“Arasso, eat everything until you burst! It’s not even that good and you won’t share; if you have a stomach ache from eating, I won’t feel  a tiny bit sorry for you,” said Taecyeon, offended by Wooyoung’s behavior.

“It’s not like that hyung…” he hesitated at first then continued. “Seyoung personally made this for me.”

“I thought so,” said Minjun as he snatched the box container from Wooyoung.

What happened next made her smile, the box container was passed around, Wooyoung in the middle trying to catch it, his facial expression showing like he’s about to cry. She can hear Jinwoon laughing while taking the video. If I was there I would have told them not to bother him she thought, but she knows deep inside her heart that’s not going to happen. She doesn’t have the guts to do so.

She typed a reply to Jinwoon:

“Is it that bad?”

Her phone rang after a few minutes, it was Jinwoon.

“Oh, Jinwoonie, annyeong!” she said after taking the call.

Annyeong, noona! I didn’t get your reply, what do you mean by is it that bad? Are you talking about Wooyoung hyung?” Jinwoon asked.

“I meant the biscotti, was it that bad?”

“Ah, I thought…” replied Jinwoon. “If you’ve seen the clip you need not ask. He was really mad that they got their hands on it.”

“Ah, is that so.”

“I really thought you were asking about hyung. Well, even if you’re not am gonna tell you anyways. It’s been really bad; he’s falling apart and all over the place.”

She assumed he would talk about him, she’s well aware of their closeness though she didn’t expect to know that his condition is not good. She was taken aback by what Jinwoon said that she cannot form a sensible response and thus, she remained silent.

Noona, you know I care for both of you and I know that I am not in a position to say these things but I’m gonna say it anyways. Nothing gets fixed if you just stay quiet; you need to talk things out in order for it to work. You need to communicate. Communications is beautiful; it lets you know the truth and sets you free,” Jinwoon said, sounding really wise for his age.

“I’ll keep that in mind Jinwoon-ah. Thanks for the clip, I’ll see you one of these days, let me know when you’re free,” she said.

Arassoyo noona, I’ll let you know,” he said.

Seyoung sat on her bed and sighed. In truth, she misses him; only she can’t bring herself to answer his calls or send a reply to his messages. The two weeks of not communicating with him cleared her mind and eased her heart somehow. In actuality, she is ready to talk to him but being a girl she doesn’t want to be the one to initiate and she doesn’t think a phone conversation is enough to clear things up. I know he’s busy with promotions and their tour but can’t he really find the time to come over here personally to explain, she thought as she leaves her room.

She was greeted by her mother holding a bouquet of what seems to be three dozens of roses in six different colors.

“These came for you. I think someone has finally realized that it takes effort to win his woman back,” he mother teased as she hands her the flowers.

Omma…” she said trying hard not to smile widely.

“Talk to him, hear him out. I believe he truly loves you because he was practically going out of his mind when he came here last time,” her mother said. “He would have missed his practice if I didn’t ask him to go.”

She didn’t say anything, she just smiled. She knows her mother understands her after all, mothers know best.

“Don’t you have any plans today?” her mother asked as they head to the kitchen. As she promised, she spends more time with her mother in the kitchen nowadays because she’s determined to learn how to cook.

“I’m going out with Eunhye later; she said she wanted to hang out.”

“Where are you going?”

“She didn’t tell me. She just said she’s gonna come and pick me up. She must really miss me Omma because she asked me to stay at her place tonight.”

“Well you haven’t seen her in a while because you’ve been really busy. It’s understandable.”

“Well there is that and I miss her too. It’s okay if I sleep over at her place, right?” Seyoung asked.

“Of course my daughter; I’m actually happy that you’re hanging out with your friend.”

“Thanks Omma. You’re really the best mother in the world!” she declared.

Aigoo, uri ttal, you are being very biased but I’ll accept that,” her mother said and added, “To me, you are also the best. Don’t let your sisters know though.”

Arassoyo, Omma. What can I do to help?” she asked looking at the ingredients set on the table.

“I’ll take care of this, put your flowers on a vase so it doesn’t wither too soon.”

“Okay Omma. I’ll take that vase in the living room then.”

As she makes her way to the living room she received a message. Did he finally decide to send me a message she thought. She was about to check it when another message came. And she was right, the message came from Wooyoung. The first message read:

“I hope you liked the flowers. Can’t decide on what color to send so I got all the colors available. I miss you so much it’s killing me. I love you, uri gongjunim.”

“Kure, I liked it but it would have been better if you came over and gave it to me personally. Kurigo, you have the time to go to a flower shop but you do not have time to visit me? You’re impossible!” she shook her head when she realized she was talking to her phone as if it’s going to respond or something. You are losing it Park Seyoung.

The second message was a video clip and she can’t help but to voice it out loud, “Is it just me or sending video clips are really an idol thing to do?” She opened the clip and saw Wooyoung who seems to have his phone on a selca stick trying to get an angle to show his apartment door.

“Is it clear? Wait, it’s crooked. Ah, forget it. I’ll just change this thing,” he said and proceeded to change the lock code to his apartment. The minute he successfully changed it, he looked to the camera and said, “You’re the key to all of me.”

She was touched and before long she was smiling from ear to ear until she remembered he hasn’t made a move to come see her since that day. Come over, just come over here already she thought taking the vase to keep her flowers.

“EUNHYE-SSHI THANK YOU VERY MUCH,” Wooyoung said. “Are you on your way to pick her up?”

“Yes, I’m on my way now. I’m not going to stay long, I have to go to the shooting location today,” said Eunhye on the other line.

“I understand and again, thank you. You don’t have any idea how much this means to me.”

“Alright, alright; enough with the thank you, you might start crying,” she teased. “Just promise me not to make her sad again because if that happens, I’ll be the first to hunt you down.”

Arassoyo, I promise.”

“Okay, I’m almost at her house. See you later.”

“Yes, see you later,” Wooyoung said before hanging up. I’m gonna see her again, at last. I hope she forgives me he thought as he takes his car key. They were given a few days off and he’s about to turn the plan that he came up with a few days ago into a reality. As he has expected, it was not easy. He literally had to beg Eunhye to believe and trust him and in the end, after all his effort, she did.

He was about to get into his car when his phone rings – it’s Jinwoon.

“Oh, Jinwoon-ah, what happened?” he asked.

“I talked to Seyoung noona this morning and you’re good to go hyung, I feel she will forgive you,” Jinwoon said, bypassing any greeting.

“I hope so too. I’m on the way to the shop; wish me luck Jinwoon-ah.”

“Good luck, hyung. Kurigo, later, think of buying that shop; it’s filled with yours and Seyoung noona’s memories,” he joked.

“You know what, I might. I’m hanging up now,” he said and cut the line. Seriously, I really might end up buying that shop one day he thought as he drove away.

“EUNHYE-AH, ARE YOU SURE THIS IS WHERE YOU WANT TO HANG OUT?” Seyoung asked once more as their car starts to slow down.

“Yes, you said it’s a nice place. I wanna try it out as well,” Eunhye replied. “Come on, I really want to eat something sweet.”

“There are plenty of places to go to, I know of one not too far from here,” she said, still hesitating to get out of the car. This place is filled with their memories and she’s missing him more just looking at the shop from the outside what more if they entered.

“But we’re already here. Come on, there’s no time to waste. I’ve got plenty of things planned out for us,” said Eunhye, pulling her out of the car. “I wanna try to make roses too.”

Arasso,” she said, caving to her friend’s enthusiasm.

As they made their way inside, the emptiness she’s been ignoring for the past two weeks gets more and more pronounced. Yes, I’m incomplete the whole time. I miss him and I still love him she thought as she takes the stairs one step at a time. If he calls today, I’m going to answer it and I am gonna meet him to hear his explanation she said to herself. She has made up her mind and she’s now willing to reach out.

She looked around once they’re upstairs. It’s still the same as she remembered it, the piano in the corner, the counter. The memories came rushing to her and she can’t help but smile bitterly. If I continue to feel this way I might end up crying she thought, trying to snap out of reminiscing.

“Seyoung-ah, where do you want to sit? Seyoung-ah, are you with me?” asked Eunhye.

“Huh? What did you say?”

“I said where do you want to sit?”

“Ah. Here, near the piano,” she replied.

Arassso. I’m gonna order for us okay, wait here,” Eunhye said leaving Seyoung to go to the counter.

She checked her phone while waiting for Eunhye to come back, disappointed that he hasn’t called. Ani, if you can send messages and flowers you can call too, right? Why are you not calling today? Well, why will he call, he probably thinks I won’t answer.

Unknown to her Wooyoung saw everything; he carefully concealed himself behind the counter. The moment he saw she was absorbed with her thoughts and her phone; he sneaked in and sat in front of the piano. He started to play and that’s when she noticed his presence. She marveled at his sudden appearance that she fixed her eyes on him, somehow anticipating what he is going to sing.

I can’t remember why we fell apart

From something that was so meant to be

Forever was a promise in our hearts

Now more and more I wonder where you are

Do I ever cross your mind anytime?

Do you ever wake up reachin out for me?

Do I ever cross your mind anytime?

I miss you

She cannot believe that he is here; she thinks it’s a mirage or something but the song makes her disbelief fade – it tells her that he is really there, playing the piano with his eyes closed, owning every single word of the lyrics that sums up all that he currently feels.

Still have your picture in a frame

Hear your footsteps down the hall

I swear I hear your voice drivin me insane

How i wish that you would call to say

Do I ever cross your mind anytime?

Do you ever wake up reachin out for me?

Do I ever cross your mind anytime?

I miss you

I miss you

I miss you

She finally has an idea of how much he misses him and looking at him breaks her heart because he looks really unkempt, he has lost so much weight since she last saw him.

No more loneliness and heartache

No more cryin myself to sleep

No more wonderin about tomorrow

Come back to me oh

Back to me

After he played the last note, he looked at her with pleading eyes mirroring all the longing and sadness that she’s feeling. He stood up and approached her, got down on one knee and spoke.

“Seyoung-ah, mianhae, chongmal mianhae. I love you; I am completely, hopelessly, madly, deeply in love with you to even think of the past or any other woman. I’m sorry I failed to let you feel that, please forgive me,” he said pouring all the emotions possible with every word.

“What about Minji?” she blurted out, composure be damned. “And how come you’re here? How do you know I am here?”

“I asked Euhye-sshi’s help, ani, I begged her to help me see you. And Minji is just a person from my past, she’s long gone, we’re over and done. I do not, cannot and will not care for her ever. There’s just you, all roads leads to you. I want you back; can I have you back in my life?”

“You asked Eunhye? But where is she? She said she wanted to hang out,” she said, trying not to sound overwhelmed by his declaration.

“She left; she has to go to her filming location,” he said while looking intently at her. “Did you hear what I said?”

She was about to say something when she receive a message. “Can I check this first?”

“Can I sit next to you?” he asked.

She nodded then read her message, as expected it was from Eunhye. It reads:

“Seyoung-ah, sorry I didn’t say goodbye, I don’t want to be late and I want you two to have more time together because it’s about time. I know you love Wooyoung, don’t be too difficult on him and you said you know how he is. I’ll see you again sooner.

PS. Don’t forget I got permission for you to stay out overnight. Kekeke.

She was blushing after reading her message. This woman is out of her mind really she thought putting her phone back in her purse. She felt that he has been looking at her all the while and that’s when she realized that he has seen her message.

“Didn’t you know that it’s not proper to read someone else’s message?”

Mian, I saw your cheeks turning red so I got curious.”

“Who said you can stare at me?” she asked in embarrassment.

“But I miss you, I haven’t seen you in forever and you haven’t answered my question yet so I’m committing your face to memory.”

That’s when she remembered that she hasn’t given her answer yet, nor asked her questions.

“What really happened? Why is it that she came back?”

“She didn’t tell me exactly, well how could she; I was shouting at her the whole time after you left,” he said, his voice cracking at the mention of her leaving. He sighed then continued, “I know you heard this from me before but I’m gonna say it again – I meant every single thing that I did when we were filming WGM, it’s not just a show, it is more than that. And I truly love you; please can’t you find it in you to forgive this dimwitted man?”

She wasn’t sure where to begin so she brushed his hair covering his eye. She looked into his eyes and nodded, a smile forming on her lips.

“You’re forgiving me?” he asked, relieved.

She nodded once more; she’s swept with too much emotion that it’s making it hard to form something coherent.

Once he saw her nod, he took her in his arm for a very tight embrace. “Thank you Seyoung-ah, thank you very much. I promise there won’t be such a situation again.”

“I’ll hold you to that,” she said as she embraced him back. There’s no point in prolonging anything, she love him too much to do so anyways.

A YY Couple Fan Fiction: We Are Dating, Chapter 13

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Chapter 13: “It Wasn’t So”

“Seyoung-ah, Seyoung-ah, let me explain,” Wooyoung said following her out of the apartment.

Oppa, let her go. Don’t you feel relieved she’s leaving,” Minji said, getting in his way.

“Get out of my way,” Wooyoung shouted as she pushed her aside with his elbow and hurriedly followed Seyoung.

He was not quick enough, plus she has a few meters head start thanks to Minji’s interference. Before he could get really close to her, she already drove away, leaving him broken and worried yet determined to clear himself. He went back to his apartment to get his car key. He was expecting Minji to be gone by now but she’s not. She was waiting for him to come, sitting in one of the single sofa in his living room. He ignored her and took his car key from its holder. He was heading out when she spoke.

Oppa, are you really going to be like this? Are you really just gonna ignore me?” asked Minji in a pained voice.

“Oh, wae; are you under the impression that I would treat you special because you came back?” Wooyoung said harshly. “Chakak hajima.

“Aren’t you being too much considering that you’re the one who said ‘let’s break up’ two and a half years ago?” said Minji.

“Are you really going to insist that I asked for a break up back then?” Wooyoung said, annoyed and impatient. “I don’t have time for this but since you’re insisting, I’ll let you have it. What I asked from you is to understand that I won’t always be there – that I can’t, that I have my career in front of me and people that I can’t let down. I was asking for you to endure everything with me, I wanted your patience not the space that you created.”

Oppa…” said Minji, teary eyed.

Kurigo, now you’re saying that we broke up but in front of Seyoung you’re insisting that we didn’t,” he pointed out. “Do you think I don’t know what you’re playing at?”

“But we never did broke up, that didn’t happen,” Minji defended weakly. “I know it’s my fault Oppa, I should have listened to you and I should have given you the chance to explain yourself. Mianhae.”

“Don’t you think your apology’s too late? It’s been two and a half years; if you were really sorry, you could have reached out long before,” he said bitterly. “Why now, why when I’ve already moved on?”

Mianhae, Oppa. Chongmal mianhae. Can’t you find it in you to forgive me, jebal,” she cried. “You promised you’ll love me forever.”

Kure, I can forgive you in time but that’s it, no more,” he said. “All these years, you think I don’t have any idea what you’re up to, where you were, where you’ve gone when you left without saying goodbye? I know everything, our friends talk about you, and how you’ve been having such an awesome time while I’ve been miserable I even had to take some time off everything.”

“That’s not true Oppa, I was as miserable as you! I’ve been heartbroken since,” she feebly denied.

“Don’t think you can convince me with those tears or your words, it’s not going to happen,” he said firmly. “We’re over – done. I loved you and that it’s. The woman I love just walked out of my door because of you. No, it’s because of me too, because I am too slow, because I was angered by your appearance I couldn’t think straight.”

Minji was speechless; she cannot believe how much he has changed. He was an entirely different person that she can’t help thinking is he really the same guy who begged her to take his dreams into consideration – to endure for and with him. She realized that it was a mistake to have listened to the coaxing for her to get back together with him. She took a deep breath, collected her thoughts and said, “I know this sounds really lame keunde chongmal mollasseo; I didn’t know that what I did hurt you that badly. I didn’t have any idea of how much you suffered after I left. Mian, Oppa. I really thought I still have a place in your heart that’s why I came back, but it’s not so. I sincerely wish you happiness.”

He was surprised by her sudden change of tone – her change of mind, the acceptance and sincerity. For the first time since she stepped into his house he took a good look at her. That’s when it dawned on him that this is not entirely her doing, there’s someone else behind this but he’s really running out of time to pry some more.

“Minji-ah, I know there’s something more behind your appearance today. But I’m really running out of time. I have to go,” he said and hurriedly walk out of the door.

He rushed to where his car was parked and got in as fast as he could. As he makes his way out of the parking lot, he dialed her number. Please pick up, jebal Seyoung-ah, answer the phone, he thought as he waits for her to answer his call – it didn’t happen. He was about to dial again when his phone rings.

“Wooyoung-ah, it’s me,” said Minjun on the other line. “I know it’s supposed to be our rest day today and you’re occupied but we need you to come to the practice room. There are some changes with the routine.”

Hyung, can I come later. I just really need to take care of something important,” Wooyoung replied in a desperate tone.

Wae? Wae gure? Moosun il itsseotsseo?” Minjun asked worriedly.

“I’ll tell you about it later Hyung, jebal. I’ll come as soon as I can,” he said before hanging up.

He tried to call Seyoung again only to find out that she has turned her phone off. Where is she? Where in God’s name did she go? Seyoung-ah, mianhae. Jebal let me make it up to you, don’t run away. The more he thinks of what could happen, the more paranoid he becomes. He’s been through something like this before but he’s more at a lost and scared right now than he was before and it’s killing him. He drove around hoping to spot her car but to no avail, that’s when he decided to drive to her home. He was greeted by her puzzled mother.

“I thought you have a schedule or something when I saw Seyoung’s car parked outside. Is something wrong?” she asked concerned.

He do not know how to reply to her mother’s question nor face her properly, he can only fidget with his hands out of nervousness.

“I’ll go call her for you, chamkkanman,” said her mother, getting a hint of the situation and trying her best to be as levelheaded about it as possible.

He waited in agony; it feels like forever before her mother came back and the anticipation build up is nerve wracking plus her pained look keep flashing back in his mind that it makes him wanna kick his own self for being witless. You are so stupid Jang Wooyoung! How can you think of yourself first before the woman you love?

“I’m sorry but she’s asleep. I tried to wake her but she must be really tired, there was no response at all,” her mother said once she came back.

“It’s okay Omonim. Can I wait here until she wakes up, I really wanna talk to her, please,” he replied politely.

“Are you sure you want to wait? Don’t you have any schedule today?” her mother asked.

He was about to say no when his phone started ringing. He ignored it without checking who the call was from and said, “It is okay Omonim; I don’t have any schedule today.”

His phone rang a second time; he was about to ignore it again when her mother spoke.

“Answer it, it must be important,” she said.

He answered without looking who is on the line, “Yoboseyo?

Yah imma, chikum uhdiyah? Why aren’t you here yet? You’re needed here!” said the voice on the other line, clearly irritated.

“Jinyoung hyung, mianhaeyo, I’m coming,” he lied.

“You better be, even if you’re a good dancer, you shouldn’t be this irresponsible!”

Ne, hyung, mianhaeyo. I’ll be there,” he managed to say before the line was cut.

Omonim, shilejiman…” he started.

“You want me to wake Seyoung up one more time?” her mother finished his sentence. “I can see that you are desperate to talk to her and that you must have had a misunderstanding for her to avoid seeing you but you have to go. Your president won’t call you for something petty. I understand how you feel, I do, but you have to leave for now. You can clear your misunderstanding some other day.”

Omonim…

“I won’t judge you because I do not know the whole story, but I’m not taking your side either. What I know though is that misunderstanding happens in any relationship but it shouldn’t affect everything else. You should go,” her mother said.

Arossoyo, Omonim. I will come back later,” he said. He bowed to Seyoung’s mother and made his way to the door, feeling emptier than earlier.

“SUGOHASYEOTSSEUMNIDA,” THE SIX OF THEM SAID ALTOGETHER. They just finished another performance and everybody is packing up for the day.

“Shall we go eat somewhere?” Chansung suggested. “I’m hungry.”

“You’re always hungry, you and Taec,” said Nichkhun eyeing Taecyeon.

“Why do you always connect my name to food, that’s not right,” Taecyeon said, defending himself.

Junho signaled for them to be quiet. He has been looking at Wooyoung who is quieter than his usual self. He’s walking with them but he seems to not be with them at all.

“Wooyoung-ah, gwenchanah?” Minjun asked thrice before Wooyoung noticed.

Hyung, oh, gwenchanah,” he replied, not looking at Minjun.

“I don’t think so. You don’t look okay,” said Junho, putting his arm around Wooyoung. “Wae, she’s still not talking to you?”

“Huh? Oh, but please I don’t want to talk about it,” Wooyoung replied. “Can I go ahead; I’m not in a mood to hang out today.”

Kure, naeil bwa,” said Minjun. “Call if you need company.”

Arassoyo, Hyung,” he said and waved at them before walking away.

“I’m worried about him; it’s different this time around. He looks like he’s about to fall apart,” Nichkhun said as they watch him walk away.

“You noticed it too?” said Minjun. “I just hope they get back together soon, I don’t want to see him trying so hard to be happy anymore. It’s painful to watch.”

“Same here, and I wish he talks about it so we can help,” added Junho.

“Let him be for now, we know him. He would open up if he really can’t take it anymore,” said Taeyeon reminding them of how Wooyoung is as a person.

I NEVER THOUGHT THIS DAY WOULD COME. THE DAY THAT I’D FEEL SUCH EMPTINESS BEING IN MY OWN HOUSE, Wooyoung thought as he enters his apartment. This place feels so cold; I am feeling cold he said to himself. It’s been more than a week now since he last saw her, more than a week since he last heard her voice and it’s breaking his heart because he knows that it’s his own fault. It’s his own fault why he’s in this situation, why he’s in this mess. I should have said I love her; I should have assured her that she’s the one I want to be with. I’m such an idiot!

He checked his phone, hoping for a reply to the 6,812 messages that he has sent only to find nothing. Just like she hasn’t answered any of his calls since that day, she hasn’t sent any reply. How do I let her know that it wasn’t so, that I am completely, hopelessly, madly, deeply in love with her to even think of the past or any other woman?

He sat on the sofa, remembering her all the while. The last time they cuddled here feels like ages ago. If only I can turn back the time he thought. He looked at the note on the center table, Minji’s very late and insignificant apology. If he’s not at a lost right now he would have looked into who convinced her to come back but that’s not the case. He’s been in hell since that day that he barely knows what’s been happening around him. He’s been on interviews one after the other, he performed on stages, smiling and having fun but deep inside, he’s crying. “Jugeul kkeot gata,” he said as silent tears fall down on his face.

He got up and went to his bedroom, rid himself of his clothes and made his way to the bathroom to take a shower. As the water flows on his body, he remembered his pain for the past days, the longing, anger and helplessness. He couldn’t come back to visit her after the practice because they ended up really late, then the schedule filed up that there was no possible way to escape. I don’t wanna feel anymore he thought as he let the water flow on his body as if it would wash his feelings away, as if it would erase his weariness and agony, and before long his tears started to mix with the water.

After his shower, he decided to stay in his living room, since sleep has been hard to come by lately, like it has been avoiding him like the proverbial plague. He connected his MP3 player to the sound system and set it on shuffle. A familiar song played, calling, connecting to him and in no time he was dancing in sync to the rhythm and beat of the song as the lyrics says what he had failed to put into words.

I can’t win, I can’t reign

I will never win this game

Without you, without you

I am lost, I am vain,

I will never be the same

Without you, without you

I won’t run, I won’t fly

I will never make it by

Without you, without you

I can’t rest, I can’t fight

All I need is you and I,

Without you, without you

Oh oh oh!

You! You! You!

Without…

You! You! You!

Without…you

As he immersed himself to the song, giving all that he’s got with every turn, every chasse it dawned on him what he should do. A plan on how to get her back came to him. Of course it’s going to be tedious but he does not care, he can’t be without her.

Can’t erase, so I’ll take blame

But I can’t accept that we’re estranged

Without you, without you

I can’t quit now, this can’t be right

I can’t take one more sleepless night

Without you, without you

I won’t soar, I won’t climb

If you’re not here, I’m paralyzed

Without you, without you

I can’t look, I’m so blind

I lost my heart, I lost my mind

Without you, without you

Wooyoung revealed in the lyrics and danced to the song like his life depended on it. It’s the break that he was waiting, the wake up call that he shouldn’t be wallowing and pitying himself but making the grand gesture. A reminder that he’s not giving his best to win the woman he loves with all of himself. Enough subtlety Jang Wooyoung, you won’t get anywhere with that he said to himself as he lay down on the floor, exhausted from dancing. Once his breathing calmed down he got up and took his phone. He searched his phonebook and smiled when he found the contact person he was looking for. I have long accepted that there’s no such thing as pride for the person I love. I’m gonna do anything to get her back he resolutely said to himself as he place the call.

A YY Couple Fan Fiction: We Are Dating, Chapter 8

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Chapter 8: “My Love, My Comfort and Resting Place Part 1”

The world is spinning, literally, Wooyoung thought.  He’s currently at the airport lounge with his groupmates, waiting to board their flight. Thankfully he made it on time despite the hangover that he’s currently nursing. It’s worth it, this headache is worth it, he said to himself. In actuality, he wishes to be at home, but he knows that’s not possible, not unless he really wants to be in trouble that is.

“Wooyoung-ah, are you okay?” asked Minjun as he sat to the seat next to him. “You look really puffy; having a hangover are we?”

Neh, Hyung, I have a very bad hangover. I feel it’s better to not have a head right now,” he said in confirmation.

“Why, what happened? I thought you’ll be completely rested today; well not completely but I didn’t expect you having a hangover,” Minjun looked at him quizzically. “You said Seyoung-sshi doesn’t drink alcohol.”

“She doesn’t but her father is a very good drinker; that or I was completely cheated into drinking too much last night,” he said, grimacing a bit because of the memory.

Yah, you met your future father in law last night? Daebak!” Minjun said then turned to their groupmates. “Yedera, eri wa. Wooyoung-ie is all grown up; he drank with his future father in law last night!”

Chincha? Eotteohke? Is that why your face was almost fully covered when you entered the airport gate?” Taecyeon asked as he makes his way to where Wooyoung and Minjun were, the other members closely following him.

“How did you survive?” asked Nichkhun as he sat on the other side of Wooyoung’s seat.

“Yes, we want to know that. I mean, okay, it’s like you survived by a hair or something but still, what happened?” asked Junho, who took the seat across Wooyoung.

“Wah, you’re really asking me to tell you the story right now in this state, I’m so numb,” Wooyoung said and took a sip of his black coffee. “But you know, I thought I was going to die.”

Wae, wae? Was it that bad? Come on tell us, goomgeumme jukesso!” said Chansung, they have completely surrounded Wooyoung by now and they’re all uncaring of his hangover, they only care about how he got it.

“Well, first it was the kid, you know her niece. I promised to buy her some food, the kid situation was okay – she saw the movie and keut, she’s happy,” he said. “Chansung-ah komapta, your movie suggestion is jjang.”

Kure, you’re welcome. But what happened? How did your meeting with your future father in law go?” asked Chansung.

“It went the way I did not expect it to. You know, her father could be an actor, he really got me nervous at first,” he said while holding his head in his both hands. “Ahh, I really, really thought I’ll be grilled to the bone.”

Yah, we have an idea how you’re going to feel but what happened? Come on just spill already,” said Junho, clearly getting impatient.

“Well at first it was…” started Wooyoung when his phone rang. He smiled automatically when he saw Seyoung’s name register on the screen. He signaled to his groupmates that he is going to take the call and they snickered in unison at how he looked when he finally answered.

“Yes, annyeong, how are you?” Wooyoung said as greeting.

“Wooyoung-ah, it’s me, Seyoung-ie,” said Seyoung on the other line.

“Ara, that’s why I said how are you?”

“I’m okay and I want to ask how you are? Uhdiyah?  At the airport? Are you okay?” she asked.

Yah, cheoncheonhi; one at a time. First I’m okay, though I have a headache, I think I’ll live. And yes I am at the airport, waiting to board the plane,” he answered. “Neo, uhdiyah?”

“On location, filming; taking a short break. So you made it on time. That’s a relief,” she said. “When are you coming back?”

“I haven’t even left and you’re asking when I’m coming back?” he teased her, just because he was given the chance. “After a couple of days; I miss you already.”

“You’re really gonna tease me every chance you get huh?” she said, feigning annoyance for a few seconds. “I miss you too, but you have to work and so do I. Did you take anything for your hangover?” she asked.

“Yes, and I’m drinking black coffee right now.”

Yah, black coffee is not good for a hangover. Drink water.”

Arasso. Aigoo, uri Park Seyoung-ie, are you that worried about me? Nomo joah,” he teased.

Kure, I am worried. Because of me you have a hangover, how can I not worry?”

“It’s okay, don’t worry about me. At least your father knows now that I’m serious, that I really love his daughter.”

“Well, there is that,” she said. “They’re calling for me already. Take care, have a safe flight okay. Call or message me when you land.”

“Alright, you take care too. I hope you’re not wearing see-through clothes right now. Saranghae.”

“Nado, saranghae and I’m not wearing see-through today. Kkeunhno.

Algetsuebnida, gongjunim,” said Wooyoung before hanging up. He turned to his groupmates who were covering their mouths in disbelief.

Yah, that is so goosebump inducing! Where did you learn that?” asked Minjun, teasing.

“You’re right Minjun-ah, I thought I was going to puke or something,” added Nichkhun.

“Look who’s talking, you can be worse than him when you’re on the phone with your girlfriend,” said Taecyeon.

“Really? But I don’t call my girlfriend gongjunim,” Nichkhun defended himself.

Hyung, even if you don’t call her that, the way you talk to your girlfriend is so… Ah, I don’t have the words,” Junho said.

Yah, why is the talk diverted to me? We should be questioning Wooyoung, he was on the phone, not me,” Nichkhun said.

“That’s right, leave Nichkhun hyung for another day. Where were we Wooyoung-ah, what happened when you met your future father in law?” asked Chansung who is really curious about what happened.

Kugeu,  itchana…” Wooyoung started to say just as it was announced that they can now board the plane going to their destination.

Aish!” said the five altogether in frustration.

“Let’s go, we have to board the plane now,” said Wooyoung, happy to have escaped the questioning at least for now. He knows it’s going to happen one of these days and he’s okay with that but not now. His head is really heavy he just wants to sleep the two hours flight away.

Kaja, yedera. Wooyoung-ah, we’ll get you later,” said Minjun.

“Don’t miss out any detail or we’re gonna wrestle you for it,” added Taecyeon.

Arassoyo, hyung. Later,” Wooyoung obliged, weakly.

At times like this, he really wishes that they do not know anything about his relationship because as much as he cares about his groupmates, he cares about keeping some privacy to himself. I guess it can’t be helped this time around, he thought as they make their way to board the plane.

“I THINK SEYOUNG-AH LOOKS BETTER NOW THAN A WHILE AGO, don’t you think so, Sangwoo-ah?” said Mi-sook, Seyoung’s mother in her drama Glorious Day.

“I think so too Sunbaenim, she looks relieved about something. Does this have something to do with someone who’s currently going crazy?” teased Sangwoo.

Sunbae,” Seyoung said, feigning ignorance. “It’s nothing like that,” she added, trying hard not to blush.

“Yeah, nothing, like you’re believable with that blush on your face. It’s okay, just be careful,” Sangwoo adviced.

“Be careful about what?”

“Nothing, if you really want to put it that way, it’s fine. Just remember and accept that the general public can be scary sometimes,” Sangwoo said.

“He’s right Seyoung-ah, keep that in mind. Listen to your Sunbaes,” Mi-sook agrees.

Arassoyo, Sunbaenim. I’ll keep your words in mind,” she accepted.

“Okay people look lively; this is one of the last scenes. Get ready,” called the director. “Hana,tul, set, action!”

I WONDER IF HE’S REACHED HIS HOTEL ALREADY, said Seyoung to herself. The director gave them an hour long break before shooting the final scene. She closed her eyes for a few second and reached for her pouch to check her phone. Sure enough, there’s a Missed Call and a message from Wooyoung. The message read:

Seyoung-ah, the plane landed and we’re now at the hotel. I slept all throughout the plane ride and I’m feeling better; don’t worry. We’re gonna rest for a bit then head straight for rehearsals. I know it’s your last shooting day, good luck! Fighting uri yeochin. <3

She typed a quick reply:

I’m happy and relieved that you’re feeling better. That’s good to know. Good luck on your performance too, uri sarangseuron namchin. <3

She pressed send, made sure that the message was sent for good measures then returned the phone in her pouch. She was checking herself out on the mirror when her phone rang – it’s Wooyoung. She hurriedly answered the phone.

“Wooyoung-ah, how’s the rehersal?”

“Difficult and fun at the same time; we’re given a 10 minute break and I wanted to hear your voice badly.”

Wae? Is something wrong?”

Ani, geunyang it comforts me.”

“Hmmm, you’re really having a tough time.”

“It’s not that. It’s just when I hear your voice, I feel like being wrapped in my blanket. You know that feeling?”

“You mean feeling sleepy?”

Yah, it’s not like that.”

“I know, I’m just kidding. It’s comforting to hear your voice too. It’s like coming home.”

“Yes, to a resting place where I don’t need to put up any image or try so hard to please everyone.”

Ne, that exactly,” she said. “I have to go; I want to check my lines for the last time before we shoot.  I’ll message you later.”

“Seyoung-ah, I want to ask you something,” he said.

Mwonde?”

Will you give me a kiss when I get back?”

“Jang Wooyoung-ie! Here I thought.. Concentrate on your performance. I have to go,” she said turning crimson. This guy is really unpredictable sometimes.

“Answer me first, palli..”

“Do you really want it that much that I kiss you first?”

“Yes,” he said firmly.

Arasso, I’ll think about it until you get back. Am hanging up now,” she said then pressed the end button. Honestly with what she’s planning, she just might really kiss him first like he wanted.

On Repeat: Pull and Pull – 2PM

I’m taking a very, very short break from writing my current project because I have been very distracted. Thank you very much Twitter, YouTube and Facebook for the very distracting feeds that you’re showing on my timeline; you can really take a woman’s time regardless if she doesn’t have much in her hand or what. But then no regrets, I saw what I wanna see and I am indeed thankful. That last word of gratitude is less peppered with sarcasm than the first one or is not containing any hint of sarcasm at all, maybe.

Right so the current song on repeat in my player is Pull and Pull by 2PM off their album Go Crazy! I’ll be honest though that my favorite track off the album is Rain is Falling (비가와; bigawa) mainly because of its sad theme. Yes, I always go for the sad song every time though I did like Pull and Pull as well when I first listened to it. Curious that I’m listening to Pull and Pull instead of Rain is Falling, right? Well, I got curious. Someone mentioned that he likes this song and I am all “why, what’s with that song?” All I can think of is it really gives off that very sexy feel and that’s it. So I checked the translation and what do you know, there just might be more to it than sexiness. And I am lost in my delusional world all over again. Who wouldn’t, I mean, just read along:

Hello Pretty girl
My sweetheart
When I look at you
It’s like a glow world
You dazzle and shine
I can’t even look at you
Except like this

(Get low)
You and I in Slow motion
(Let it go)
However my heart leads me
I can’t wait so I text you first again

(So I just want you girl
Can always be together)
So you can come to me
(So wanna touch you girl
Can always read your mind)
So you can fall for me girl

I’m gonna lay you down
Wanna lay you down
I’m gonna lay you down
(So I just want you girl
Can always be together)

Every time I open my eyes in the morning
I want you to be next to me
When I see you closing your eyes, I want to kiss you
Your perfect face, your soft lips
I’m amazed, oh my god, you’re so beautiful

(Get low)
Every day, I’m in Slow motion
(Let it go)
This makes you angry again
You pull ahead in our conversation but look so calm
So again today, I’ll lay you down just like yesterday

Please know
That I have no choice
Even if I may seem pathetic sometimes

I’m your baby
You’re my lady
I can’t stop

So pull & pull & pull to feel
No push & pull but I love u girl in love

I don’t think there’s any explanation needed anymore as to why someone likes this song, the lyrics speaks for itself; and truly it give me so much hope; not that I’m out of it although of course, most probably, it’s just me.

Lyrics Source | popgasa |

Spot On: 미친거 아니야?(GO CRAZY!) by 2PM

It’s an awesome Wednesday! Aside from some discomfort and a reminder that I am not a robot, that I am a human being and a woman actually, today is an awesome day!  Why? Because finally, finally the wait for the craziest MV ever is over! Squeeeee! I don’t have any plans of hiding my excitement and glee; nope, I am not gonna hide it, ever!

I know just a few people know that I am a 2PM fan, like just a certain few because I’m a shy KPOP listener, or maybe. And those who know knows that I’ve been waiting for their comeback like crazy, like literally counting the days and checking the official YT account for any update whatsoever because I am WAITING for this. The wait is worth every minute and second of it.

I’ve seen this MV last night, coz like they said, the MV will be released on the 10th of September and it was. At exactly 12:00am KST (7:00pm GST) the MV was released for the world to view, in all its colorful and fun glory:

It is soooo awesome I passed out, and when I regain my senses I listened to it again then passed out; repeat 10, 20 and most probably more times. 2PM made an MV to go crazy for and I don’t have the right words to say how incredible the song and the MV are. I do, by the way, want to list what’s so awesome about the MV, here it is:

  1. The element of fun. I’m sure a lot will agree that fun is a necessity, it is a must have to make everything bearable, work, everyday life and love life, let’s include that though it’s a “Not Applicable” for me. I think the concept they adopt for this MV is “it’s the weekend, we are all burned out from our daily routine, let’s have some crazy fun time.” And believe it or not, in my 20s, I did that every once in a while.
  2. Easy to follow and fun choreography. I keep saying fun because watching this MV I really had so much fun, the choreography is really easy to follow that I was copying the motorcycle dance on my first listen. Like there’s nothing to it. And I’m not a good dancer, I just love trying.
  3. The multitude of colors. I’ve watched a lot of 2PM MV and so far this is the most colorful and I love it, I really do love it. They all managed to look really good in their colorful clothes, I bet only a few people can pull that off. Wooyoung’s outfit gave me a flashback of Secret Garden, Kim Joo-won’s track suit. Shining shimmering splendid! I so love blue!
  4. Portrayal of intoxication. I think Do Min-joon whenever I see someone floating with the moon on their back and to see six beautiful people do that, I might be intoxicated and so are they.
  5. Being themselves. I watched about all the Real 2PM vids and this MV shows the side of them they usually show when they sit together, just goofing off being young people. It’s cute.

Yeap, they went crazy; they just had a go at fun and came out looking oh so deliciously awesome. I’m thankful they drop the MV earlier, makes a good company while waiting for the album to be released. I’m happily camping and I might dance and go crazy while I’m at it.