Yay, I Can See!

And I am back and feeling much better. I’m finally seeing clearly again after a long time, no more headache too, this is such an awesome and sweet feeling. It hurts my pocket a bit but I don’t care, I need this. I had to take a short break from writing because I can’t manage the headache after work anymore and I can’t sneak blogging at work lately because the business is picking up its phase and there’s a lot going on so the absence. But now I’m feeling better all thanks to this:

 

I still can’t decide if the frame looks great on me but the lense is surely rocking, ah the clarity is so welcome, I haven’t seen clearly in a year in my old glasses thus I feel so overjoyed; yup, I am shallow like that. I’m gonna be catching up with everything now, there’s tons that I need to finish and I feel so great that I can finally focus and finish things without stopping halfway to nurse a headache. Also, I could get to really appreciate this, truly:

Now that is priceless, thus I refuse to drown on being broke for a top of the line or expensive eyeglasses, it’s worth every single cent.

Weekend Song Obsession: Titanium

And it’s my weekend again and like a usual weekend, I sort of devote today to house chores, rest and if possible, catch up with some of the dramas. Well I covered the chores and some of the rest but I can’t bring myself to watch some dramas because I am obsessing with this:

I’ve been playing this over and over in different version thanks to Soundcloud, I was even singing to it as I take my hour long bath. Sorry, that’s an overshare but either way, it does stress how forgone my obsession is and I have a feeling it’s gonna continue on until later. Oh well, let’s have a break from dramas then plus there’s no episode 14 of My Love From Another Star this week anyways.

Here’s another proof that I am currently obsessing with this song, surprisingly I had the guts to upload me singing it at soundcloud, you’re welcome to listen at your own risk. I won’t take responsibility for your bellyache if you laugh so hard because of it.

Anyways, Annyeong, I’m just passing by and while I’m at it, I would like to say Happy Lunar New Year everyone!

[As I Quote Tuesday] Those Stangers

“Except myself, everyone is a stranger. In the end,
they become strangers. –Shin Joo-yeon, I Need
Romance 3

Did it ever happen to you, being extremely close to a certain person then one day, all of a sudden you’re not seeing eye to eye anymore nor talking, and all the while you don’t have any idea what happened? Did that ever happened to you? It did to me and it took me a long time to get over that situation. It was one of those saddest moments in my life although now I get and understand what happened, and it’s not so bad anymore.

There’s plenty of lines worth quoting in I Need Romance 3, it has both wits and touch of reality though of course, you won’t completely believe most of the things that’s being portrayed could happen, some of it, yes, never in entirety. When I first heard what I quoted, I am reminded of those times, those times that I was estranged from a close friend back then who shall remain nameless to protect both of us, err, well mostly her or them, all I’m gonna say is it happened a long time ago, but the feeling I can recall quite clearly and even the look on her face also, to my disbelief.

Why the disbelief? Well because we were soooo close, I cook for her; I fix stuff for her and more. I was at her beck and call then one day, we fell apart because of something baseless and petty. I know I’m not without a fault, I should have been less straight forward it’s just that she knows me for being one that I don’t understand why she couldn’t overlook my sharp, stupid mouth that time. And yes I spoke more out of anger, because of the hurtful things that has been going around. In the end, there’s nothing that we could both do to even try fix what has been broken, plenty of people got involved and things was blown out of proportion. We ended up as strangers, being civil is not an option either.

Thus, I got my own flashback when I heard this lines, life is full of strangers, but that doesn’t mean you should be closing down your doors to get to know or be close to anybody, that’s as bad as being a estranged. No man, is an island; and even if I experienced being estranged from someone, it doesn’t mean that I won’t be going about the world and know people or at the most be close to them. We are all strangers yes, but it doesn’t mean there’s not a single connection to all of us.

At most I see and believe that life is a highway, a long road that at first you travel on your own but as you go, you meet travelers, some may walk with you for some time, some completely pass you by and some that might stay and walk with you until the end of the line. All of them are strangers, yet, you have that connection, you’re traveling the road called life.

LIEBSTER AWARD

This was surprising, and as I replied to Airlia’s comment, I am not expecting this; thus, it makes me overjoyed, thank you.

Now the purpose of the Liebster Award is to encourage writers of new blogs and explore more of this world of blogging. I started blogging (somewhat committed) last October 1, 2013 (well at least that’s when I first posted an entry) and so far, I’m having fun and still can’t get over the fact that people are actually reading my post; I’ll never ceased to be amazed. Then now, this nomination, wow; yes, that’s all I’ve got to say: WOW! This here is a huge encouragement to continue.

Right, with this nomination, I need to give out the same too. Here are the rules for the Liebster Award:

1. Each nominee link back the person who nominated them.

2. Answer 10 questions which are given to you by the nominator.

3. Nominate 10 other bloggers for this award who have less than 200 followers.

4. Create 10 questions for your nominees to answer.

5. Let the nominees know that they have been nominated by going to their blog and notifying them.

Okay, so the rules are listed now let me make my way to it. I would like to thank Airlia for the nomination, I really appreciate it.

Next, my answer to Airlia’s 10 questions:

1. What’s the story behind the name of your blog?

Ah, that. It’s not much a story as it’s me knowing myself well, somehow. I know that I am not gonna be able to write about a single thing in particular, mostly it’s going to be random, about anything and everything at the same time, thus the name: a mix of anything and everything.

2. If there was one mythical or fictional creature you’d get to keep as a pet, what would it be?

A Pygmy Puff, a purple colored one.

3. Tell us your quote of the day.

For my quote for today, read it here.

4. What’s your biggest dream?

To be a linguist; just kidding, although I do wish I was. My biggest dream is to be an awesome writer.

5. What’s your biggest fear?

Having no one who understands me, I mean not even one person; that’s scary.

6. Who is your favorite person in the world?

Hmmm, that would be my brother, Jan Michael.

7. If you get the chance to be a part of a different culture, which one it would be?

This is a vague question for me. Does it have something to do with ethnicity or something? But either way, I love being Asian, so if I was to be part of a different culture, I’d still want it to be Asian, at least from East or South East Asia.

8. If you were given the chance to travel the world, but not see or contact any family or friends during the trip. Would you go?

If it is beneficiary and if it is just a short trip then I would, those are the conditions well actually I am applying that now. I call my parents every two weeks because International Long Distance charges are expensive and they rarely put credits to use the internet so, not much of a choice.

9. You have a magical ability or a super power, what is it and why?

Mind reading – I blame I Hear Your Voice and Lee Jong-suk for that. Okay, seriously, it would be a good personality development means is all I am saying.

10.  You are writing your life story, what’s the first line?

She wandered fearlessly to the night, or so she thought.

Now, here are my nominees:

1. http://randomsoju.wordpress.com/

2. http://kdramadreamer.wordpress.com/

3. http://rarapop.wordpress.com/

4. http://thedramanoona.wordpress.com/

5. http://blogphilic.wordpress.com/

6. http://thedramacorner.wordpress.com/

7. http://ocdramadee.wordpress.com/

8. http://crazy9drama.wordpress.com/

9. http://mayms89.wordpress.com/

10. http://shukmeister.wordpress.com/

And my questions for them nominees:

1. What is your motivation to continue blogging?

2. What is your favorite blog post, one that you have written?

3. How do you spend a typical weekend?

4. What has been your biggest blogging challenge so far?

5. What is that moment in your life that you regret the most?

6. What are your favorite and least favorite drama clichés?

7. Do you post under your real name? Why or why not?

8. Who is your ultimate bias?

9. Are you a coffee or a tea addict?

10. What is your idea of a perfect drama?

Lastly, I need to notify my nominees. I do hope they have fun answering my questions.

Time, Never Enough

I never thought that day would come, that day when I’d finally say something in this context: my time is not enough. Shocking; even I can’t believe myself that I’m saying that but I do, and my time is definitely not enough. How did I realize it? It happened last Friday, which is my off day. It’s a whole day off, a WHOLE day but it felt like it passed by in a snap, alas, it was over before I knew it and I didn’t even get to do everything that I want to and I have this big plan in my head. Right so here’s what happened and what I was really planning on doing:

The original plan is to finish the house chores and then catch up on the dramas, I still have plenty of dramas that I have to watch, then there’s also those currently airing that I am up to date with. Simple right, it is simple, but it never happened although I did get to watch those currently airing dramas but I didn’t get to the marathon part. Why? Well, first there was the matter of cooking which is important and which is something unavoidable because I am not at home where my mother prepares the meals or if not her, it’s my father. Then there’s the laundry, again it is important and unavoidable and the same goes with cleaning and sweeping the floor, you know, the basic.

One more thing is I had a quite long conversation with my parents; they are visiting my aunt’s place because it’s the feast day of our town’s patron saint – Saint Anthony Abbot. My cousin lend her iPhone to them and I got to see two of my aunts from my father’s side of the family and a few cousins. I was a bit envious with all the food they’re consuming and of course because I wasn’t present again but things can’t be helped. After that conversation, I had a talk with my 2nd brother regarding budgeting and the latest things at home, how’s the situation; I love having him as a brother because I can worry less, I know he can take care of everything although of course the support is ever present.

By the time I finished my conversation with my bother it’s already evening, I prepared my lunch for the next day, took a bath and went insane for a bit and decided to move to the other room. Yes, in the last minute I decided to change rooms. A housemate of mine moved out because her husband came from the Philippines thus making the space she used to occupy empty. I’ve been thinking since she moved out if I should move to her space or what and in the end I did, and it took a lot of work. Until now, I still couldn’t believe that I was able to move those beds around on my own, yay Iron Girl! Well not really, my back still aches, I am definitely getting old.

Around 12am I finished moving and tidying up; everything was arrange as neatly and organized as I could and I was all exhausted. Even if I still want to watch at least an episode or something, I can’t really feel that happening so I cleaned up and went to bed because Saturday is already a working day and I hate being late to work. I fell asleep contemplating how time was too short, it was not enough.

Still, I’ll still try, things will work out somehow. Or I can always take a week or so of local leave if ever. Now that’s a thought, hmmm; might work though I’m not really sure. There’s too little time and there’s plenty of dramas, I now believe those words, completely, it is accurate and appropriate indeed.

[As I Quote Tuesday] Who Am I Really?

“Know thyself. – Socrates ”

“How much do you know yourself, how sure are you that that’s all to it about you?” Those are some of the questions I’ve been asking myself lately because currently, I’m not so sure about everything. Sad, right but I’m saying this in all honesty, the road ahead is shrouded in darkness and I don’t have a clue if I should still go on or what.

Why the sudden thought? Well, it just crossed my mind that this is the last year that my age would be included in the calendar and so far, nothing major has happened in my life. What have I been doing in my life anyways, where did all the time go?

Thinking about it now, I guess most of my life is spent away from my family, trying my best to support my brothers’ studies, which I know is a responsibility, well at least I think of it as a responsibility, something I owe to them especially because I was able to finish my studies before the ax fell. Knowing that, I won’t and I can’t accept that they won’t be able to finish their studies because my parents can’t support them anymore, thus I stepped up. And I think in doing so, I somehow have forgotten about me and it took me so long to realize.

Could it really be too late, too late to do what I really want to do? Should I go ahead now or should I wait for a few months more before moving forward? I’m so torn right now it’s killing me. I don’t understand because it’s too early in the year for me to be feeling this slump, my birthday is still several months away and I have never been that emotional in regards with my age.

Thus, I’m repeating this quote, know thyself; this wallowing and whining person is not really me, it’s just the slump talking and I know I’ll get my real self back sooner, I’m claiming it.

Morning View

(Or my way of saying it’s a rainy morning)

I woke up late today; I abused the snooze button as much as I can and before I knew it, it’s already 8 AM something. Thankfully there’s just two of us at home right now so I finished preparing for work on time. It also helps that there’s nothing to distract me from preparing because the internet service of our house is currently interrupted (I am leeching on the office internet, nope am not so proud) so nothing is to slow me down, well except this:

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I realized why it was so hard to wake up; it’s one of those days that you just want to stay in bed and it is sort of justifiable because of the weather condition (it’s raining). Who can resist the irresistible bed weather? I did, because I have to work but I think it’s going to be bed weather all day today so I think it’s going to be just fine. I’ll keep looking at this to motivate me:

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And because I really feel like setting the mood (my obnoxious way of saying I love torturing myself) I’ve been listening to this:

Inspired right? I love my bed, and my non breathing cuddle buddies.

[As I Quote Tuesday] On Love and Friendship

“Love is an extremely close friendship. – Enrique
Geum, Flower Boy Next Door”

Love has been defined in bazillions of ways, by bazillions of people, from the Bible to philosophers to variety of authors, egoistic, realists and narcissists but so far, what I quoted is one definition that I love among others. It’s touching, pure, and somehow complicated but actually not.

Love could be anything, in fact love is universal; it’s also a bond and the closeness that’s established through love is a gift, a priceless one. Such is a bond with true or extremely close friends. Distance can’t erase it, nor could time because the bond that’s sewn together is by far sturdier than both distance and time.

Why the sentiments? I don’t have any idea, well I might; alright I do. I have a few of that kind of friends, those that could guess or know what I’m up to and could put up with my never ending rants as well as my sarcasm. I can say that our friendship is somewhat extreme because I know myself and it’s pretty hard to put up with me like I always say. Maybe because I’m starved of affection or something, sometimes I don’t really understand too but I know; it’s hard to get through someone like me.

Currently, I am far away with those friends, so freakishly far. And we don’t get to talk often; well we have each our own lives to live plus I am sort of straying from some social media specifically Facebook and time differences, it’s a total disaster. But I know that they remember me as much as I remember them and that if ever we get time to talk, there’s no adjustment that needs to be done. When we get that chance to talk again, it’s just picking up where we left off and it’s always as fun as I can ever remember.

I guess that could be classified as loving, I am not positively sure. I’ve been looking at that angle for quite some time now and I am still not certain about it. The only love that I am certain about currently is familial, and most of my “I love you” nowadays is from my 1st brother (yes, we say “I love you” to each other before hanging up) which is also quite unexpected especially because we grew up hating each other (or I hated him because he was mother’s favorite which she insist that it isn’t so) and fighting like cats and dogs, I guess things change when you get older, well, most of it.